A/N: Originally published on September 19th, 2013 on A Purple Panda. – Alixa
They say she’s an angel. They say she’s beautiful, and smart. They say she’s talented and so perfect. They say she’s got everything, that she can do anything.
And yet, she is so lonely.
Tears don’t come easily, but blood does. They don’t see her scars or her pain behind that blinding smile, they don’t dig deep enough.
If only, if only they knew how lonely she is.
She reaches out just to be burned. She feels safer in her darkness, though she longs for warmth and light. Cold, so cold here, but a safe place.
Don’t leave me, don’t abandon me so easily.
But it’s too late, they are gone again. Did I push them away, too afraid to get burned? You hurt me over and over and you didn’t see, you didn’t listen. Why do I let you in anyways? Why do I let you hurt me again?
I am afraid of the dark. I can’t fight alone. Stay by my side, be my knight in shining armour, my Prince Charming, my saviour.
They leave, they all do. It’s my fault again, I wasn’t enough. I couldn’t make them stay, they didn’t like the cold. Warm me up.
I see the light, it seems so close yet it is so far. If I could reach it, maybe I wouldn’t be burned, not this time. If I am careful…
But it burns, always. Why don’t you want me? Don’t angels belong in the light? Not this one, no.
Cold, but safe. Scared, but safe. Don’t burn me. I’ll stay away.